This morning I exercised, showered, ate, and then it occurred to me – we're just a few hours to 2016. I found myself in a state of stillness; My mind pondering on 2015 in its entirety – my mind swaying back to ask what did I do, what will I take to the next year. In 2013, I started writing these reflective letters and this year I had not written a word. (See the letter to 2014)
So I decided to reflect on 2015 and then pen it down as a letter to 2015.
How do I even begin to write about how I feel about our time together? How do I even attempt to articulate where I am now compared to 2014?
There has been so much change and so much growth my dear 2015. In our time together, I changed from a chubby guy, to a slim guy, and then a fit guy. I successfully completed a first of its kind MOOC project powered by Columbia University called Sherlock Holmes and The Internet Of Things - which opened my eyes to the general concept of Internet of things. I have grown at work and embarked on a diploma program in Digital Marketing (which I now tutor on). I moved into my place in a relatively new town.
2015, you taught me how vulnerability can be a form of strength. You have taught me that with strong-will one can usher in both courage and strength to do more than expected. You have taught me how to identify my shadown and how to face it head on, illuminating light on the dark corners of my mind.
Lao Tzu Said "Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like."
2015, You have really tried to simplify life for me but I still struggle with the complexity of life, I now agree with the paradoxical school of thought that life is a complicated form of simplicity. So with no clues of how to fight uphill battles, or how to navigate life's boat to a safe harbor, 2015, you taught me how to relax and let life perform its magic and shape things everyday.
Sure I planned, sure I dreamt and sure some things fell into place but you taught me that when they don't I should suck it up and move on especially when there is nothing I can do to change it.
So I have been your student and you the blackboard covered in lessons learned. I sat in the middle of your class taking notes that appeared to have been inscribed on my heart.
So thank you for the many lesson. Thank you for the times I really had to enjoy the journey, and thank you for the time I had no choice but to endure the journey (because I leant from it).
This reflection on 2015 just keeps drawing me back to the present. If I made New Year resolutions (luckily I don't) I would have had quite the list ( a list I am sure will be forgotten before Jan 24). However I do know that in the coming year instead of tiptoeing I want to storm in full speed ahead. I am setting boundaries to strike the balance so I get to have both a life and have a career. Most importantly I want to feel - anything and everything be it the pain from the last rep of an exercise or the joy of falling crazily for someone.
So thank you and goodbye 2015.